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Akira hadn't thought seeing him in person would affect him as much as it does. After all, he's had two months to mentally prepare himself for this moment.

And yet, the sight of Goro Akechi, alive and in the flesh, perfectly put-together and looking like he was made to sit under the studio lighting, makes him feel... some kind of way. Unsettled, for sure, knowing what he knows now. Then again, there's a part of him that hasn't stopped feeling unsettled since he first (well, perhaps first isn't accurate) jolted awake to find himself on the train to Yongen-Jaya again. In one piece. Not bleeding out on the ground with a megalomaniacal pseudo-god bearing down on him. And, most importantly, as the only one with any recollection of all they'd been through.

It doesn't take Akira long to come to the most logical conclusion: That somewhere along the line, he screwed up. Somehow, it hadn't been enough, and now he has an opportunity to fix it—which would be a lot easier if he were to have some notion of what, specifically, he needs to fix, or even if this is a one-time deal.

At first, he tries copying his previous motions as closely as possible. People always talk about their regrets like they would change them in a heartbeat, given the chance, but the thought of altering the timeline as he knows it is overwhelming. The more Akira steps away from his previous path, the less accurate his existing knowledge may become, the bigger the chance that he may miss something important from the first time around.

That reasoning goes out the window pretty quickly. Akira finds that he can't watch Shiho Suzui jump off that building again, can't go through hearing that agony in Ann's voice a second time when he can so easily prevent it. So he stops her. It's what the Phantom Thieves would do. And things change... but not in a way that affects the flow of events in any profound way. Ann still stumbles after them into the Metaverse and finds the conviction to awaken her persona, somehow. He's not sure how it works out, but it does. What Akira does know is that fate is what you make of it. If he believes in his teammates, they'll end up where they need to be.

But for all of that, he still wavers as they're leaving the recording area. Up until now, the decisions to change things have been easy. Akechi, on the other hand... where to start? Is it even salvageable? Akira's not certain, but when he thinks of their last meeting in Shido's palace, Akechi's remark about the possibility of them meeting a few years earlier, the sounds of gunshots echoing from the other side of the bulkhead—he can't not try. It's not years, but maybe this handful of months will be enough.

Akira lets Ann go ahead with a nod, sliding his hands into his pockets as he tries to maintain his usual casual demeanor. Any moment now...
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[personal profile] fabrications 2019-03-31 04:08 am (UTC)(link)
"And company," Akechi allows, keeping his tone casual and not at all reflective of the fact that admitting to such a thing makes a significant part of him want to stand up, leave the manga cafe, and never look back.

But Akira seems to like the idea, which lets Akechi keep his thoughts from running in paranoid directions without him. He's already aware that their must be something to do in Akira's hometown - why else would Shido have ever been there? - but he decides to keep that thought to himself.

"I'm looking forward to it." It's not already decided that Akira is going to go back, but if he stays in Tokyo maybe they'll just visit instead. "It'll be interesting to see what sort of place you grew up in."
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[personal profile] fabrications 2019-03-31 08:06 am (UTC)(link)
Akechi doesn't regret it in the slightest, but the night he spends with Akira in the manga cafe ends up being the last truly relaxing evening he has for a long time. The battle against Shido is tense. The escape from his Palace is tense. Waiting for his confession is tense. Hearing his confession is...

That's harder to pin down, actually. Watching Shido break down and humiliate himself on national TV isn't at all what Akechi thinks it'll be like. There's no satisfaction in it, no surge of triumph. All he feels is a nauseating wave of contemptuous disgust, and for once he has no idea where to direct that emotion. He attends the Phantom Thieves' celebration (largely on Ann and Ryuji's insistence) and even enjoys himself while he's there, but he's still quiet and preoccupied for most of the night. He doesn't take Akira up on his unspoken offer to talk.

The rest of their journey is appropriately surreal. Even if warned ahead of time, running into Shido's Shadow comes as a nasty shock; Akechi ends up ignoring it as much as he can, which is a problem when it's the one with all the information. Moving on is more of a distraction than a relief; the situation just gets steadily more confusing and stressful from there on out, though finally getting a look at the Velvet Room is nice. Granted, he meets Akira's smile with a look of amused disbelief because even though he remembers Akira describing it as a prison, seeing it in person makes him realize how on the nose the metaphor is.

They can't linger forever - or even for very long - before they need to move on. Once they do, Akechi thinks he can understand why they didn't make it the first time around. Since joining the Phantom Thieves he's never once thought of a battle as hopeless, but the thought still claws its way into the back of his mind before he can shake it off. Even then, it's easy to believe in Akira, to push himself back to his feet with the rest of the Phantom Thieves and add his voice to theirs. Now, more than ever before, he actually feels like he's meant to be here.

And just like that, it's over. In a perfect world that would be the end of it, but Morgana vanishing along with the (rest of) the Metaverse is just one final parting kick from fate. Even Akechi is upset by his disappearance, which means he can only imagine how Akira feels. Akechi wants to extend the same offer that Akira had given him, letting him know that he's welcome if he needs somewhere else to be. But he doesn't know how, and in the end he departs just like everyone else, quiet and pensive.

Fortunately for Akira, Akechi does go home, though when he opens his door and steps inside it strikes him, for the very first time, that it doesn't really feel like much of a 'home'. That's a disquieting enough feeling that he almost turns around and leaves again, but fatigue and discontent keep him there. It's not like he has anywhere else to go, and it's not like he has anything else to do.

... Well, there is one thing he could do, but right now he's not sure he's up for the task of sorting out all the information he could use to testify against Shido. So he preoccupies himself with trying to read a certain thriller manga he'd picked up in one of his brief moments of free time the past week. Granted, his head is so full of other thoughts that he keeps having to go back and reread to try to pick up on things he's missed. He hasn't quite made it through the first volume when there's a knock at his door. The sound comes as a relief, even though on some level Akechi is absolutely certain that whoever's on the other side is bad news for him.

'Surprised' doesn't really cover how he feels when he sees who it actually is.

"Akira?" His presence alone is weird enough that Akechi doesn't even think to point out that Akira has a key and doesn't need to knock. He opens his mouth to say something else, but he closes it with a worried frown a moment later. Rather than trying to get immediate answers, he simply steps back and pulls the door open wider. If Akira wants to talk to him, or even just sit in silence with him, Akechi won't say no.
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[personal profile] fabrications 2019-03-31 03:33 pm (UTC)(link)
'Empathetic' is, rightfully, the last word many people would use to describe Akechi. He's perceptive, though, so even if he doesn't really 'get' the emotions that Akira is unable to mask he still understands what they are, where they're coming from, and how heavy they must feel if Akira either can't or won't keep them in check.

"It's alright." Akechi's never had an unexpected guest before and he's surprised to realize how little he hates it. He's just not sure if it's because it's Akira, or because it's obvious something serious.

Akira's actual reasoning might not strike most people as serious, of course, but it startles Akechi and makes his heart race faster more than anything else he's heard today. There's something a little alarming about that, but there's no stopping the fact that hearing it mostly makes Akechi feel pleasantly warm. Or hiding it, for that matter; he's not someone that blushes easily, but his cheeks are tinted faintly pink all the same. He suddenly realizes he has no idea how to respond to that. The inherently natural feel to all of his conversations with Akira is suddenly gone, leaving him to fumble for an answer.

"You can stay as long as you need," is what he finally settles on. That's... probably the right thing to say - or at least an okay thing to say? He's suddenly not sure, which is a strange sensation.
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[personal profile] fabrications 2019-03-31 04:55 pm (UTC)(link)
Akira is acting strangely enough to set off alarm bells - but while Akechi would normally plunge into immediate suspicion, right now he can only think that it makes perfect sense. Even Akechi feels the sting of Morgana's loss, so he can only imagine that it's agonizing for Akira. Maybe that's why he's here, where Morgana would never be in the first place.

But as Akira proceeds into his apartment, Akechi is struck by how ill-equipped he is to handle something like this. It's stupid to not know what to do right now, but he's not even sure if Akira would prefer comfort, a distraction, or simply to sit in silence.

Well, maybe he can at least start with the basics. He follows after Akira, pausing long enough to grab a bottle of water for each of them before he proceeds into the living room. He offers one out to Akira before taking a seat next to him.

"If you need to stay the night, that's fine, too." Tone a little lighter, though not quite joking, he adds: "I still have your toothbrush from last time."
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[personal profile] fabrications 2019-03-31 06:03 pm (UTC)(link)
It isn't like Akira seeing right through him and jumping straight to the point has never happened before, but being called out so bluntly catches Akechi off guard. He pauses in the middle of opening his own water bottle, uncertain of what to say. After a moment he sighs, though it's no an unhappy sound.

"I thought it might not be a one-time thing." He'd been hoping, as a matter of fact, but that's a hope he hasn't allowed himself to consciously acknowledge until this moment. He's not ready to say it out loud, though he can admit to one thing. "My apartment might not be as comfortable as you room, but having company was nice." Even given the unpleasant circumstances surrounding Akira's original visit.
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[personal profile] fabrications 2019-03-31 06:49 pm (UTC)(link)
The assurance that his room is comfortable get a look of mild skepticism from Akechi. It's not like he thinks Akira is lying to him, but he doesn't quite see how he can think that. Akechi might not have many things to compare it to, but Akira's room seems much more personalized and lived-in. Akechi is pretty sure there's nothing that makes his apartment stand out compared typical furnished student housing.

"Like star-shaped stickers?" Akechi doesn't really think of himself as having a 'favorite' decoration in Akira's room, but the stars have always stuck out to him. Still, the 'we' in that sentence isn't lost on him. He's just not sure who all is included in the 'we'. "Any suggestions?"
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[personal profile] fabrications 2019-03-31 07:51 pm (UTC)(link)
"Of course. My mistake." He sounds more amused than apologetic, however.

The possible suggestions are all considered, and thought Akechi doesn't say anything out loud he's silently shooting them down one after another. Leblanc and his rock climbing gym are the only places he'd say he likes to visit, neither of which have souvenirs that are better suited to sitting on the shelf than being used. Posters aren't something he sees himself wanting, either. The chocolate fountain--

Wait, is that a serious offer? Akechi slides Akira an almost wary look and finds himself completely unable to gauge how sincere of a proposal that is.

"I don't think I need such direct access to that much chocolate." He'd be absolutely sick of it after just one day. "But souvenirs would be nice. You should tell Sojiro-san to start selling them."
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[personal profile] fabrications 2019-03-31 08:47 pm (UTC)(link)
Conversations with who? Akechi wonders, but he doesn't say that out loud. Even if he's sure Akira is far from okay, his mood is improving and Akechi doesn't want to be the one to ruin that. The counterpoint about getting Leblanc souvenirs is solid ones, and Akira's suggestion gets a shake of the head from Akechi.

"I wouldn't want to add to your criminal record." Even over something as petty as a coffee cup. "But I'm sure we'll find other places to visit. I can just get something from one of those." His word choices - 'we', 'places', 'one of' - are all very deliberate. He wants to experience more of the city from here on out, and he wants to do it in Akira's company.
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[personal profile] fabrications 2019-03-31 10:16 pm (UTC)(link)
That Akira's smile doesn't come as easily to him isn't lost on Akechi, but once again he misidentifies its source. Even with his own plans to present what he knows to the team prosecuting Shido he can't imagine that Akira is about to do the same thing, not when Akechi himself is only planning to admit to his own crimes if he has to. So once again he assumes its about Morgana.

Maybe this subject is a bad one to dwell on. Akechi changes gears.

"Speaking of going out, have you had dinner yet?" Akechi was likely to skip it before Akira showed up, but now it sounds like a good idea. "Though if you don't want to compete with the Christmas Eve crowds, I have the ingredients for proper omurice this time."
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[personal profile] fabrications 2019-03-31 11:01 pm (UTC)(link)
"I may not have much time for it, but I do know how to cook." His recipes are always pretty by the book and uninspired, but still perfectly edible. Either way, it's a necessary skill. Akechi wouldn't especially mind living off of convenience store bento, restaurants, and Sae's charity, but it's more expensive that he'd like.

The question about the pancakes sparks a distant memory, one which doesn't take Akechi long to place. He digs in his pocket for his phone and take a moment to search for the restaurant.

"They are." He holds up his phone so that Akira can see the restaurant's website, which currently shows an banner announcing special extended hours for Christmas Eve. "We might have to wait a while before there's an available table, but I don't mind that." He's learning that he can enjoy doing almost anything as long as he's with Akira. A boring wait in line is nothing.
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[personal profile] fabrications 2019-04-01 12:42 am (UTC)(link)
Well that decision was simple - though it's just like Akira to be so firm and decisive with so little preparation, so Akechi can only smile and nod. He'd already showered and redressed by the time Akira showed up, so all that's left for him to do is grab his coat. He pauses as he slides his closet door open, however, giving Akira an appraising look.

"Do you want to borrow a coat again?" He has two aside from the ones he usually wears, one better for winter and the other better for fall - but either of them will be better than the light jacket Akira's wearing. He can't actually be immune to cold, and Akechi's pretty sure it's snowing outside.

Besides, it'll be nice to have Akira wear one of his coats again, which is a thought so strange that Akechi bundles it up and shoves it aside before he can come close to saying it out loud.
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[personal profile] fabrications 2019-04-01 01:48 am (UTC)(link)
Akira gets a once over and... honestly, not really. Akechi is so used to seeing Akira in starkly contrasting colors, so he just looks a little odd in the reddish brown coat he's wearing now. Akechi buys some time to think by shrugging on his own coat (it's the same subdued plaid one he'd let Akira borrow a few weeks ago) and transferring his phone and wallet to its pockets.

"Not bad," Akechi finally allows, because that's at least also true; he figures Akira can look at least passable in nearly anything. "But it looks like something you borrowed." Which is true, but that's a hard vibe to quantify; it just doesn't suit Akira, or look like something he'd buy for himself. "Black suits you better." Too bad the only black anything that Akechi owns are some pants.

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