(that's one thing he'll be forever grateful for, ren complying with whatever ryuji needs, no questions or complaints. he's never once poked or prodded ryuji for an answer, or demanded an explanation for why he felt a certain way or did something. ren has always lets ryuji be himself, without any need to change who he is or have to validate his existence in some way. from the start, ryuji felt completely and wholly accepted by ren for everything he is.
he lets out a sigh of relief, unaware of just how emotional he can get just from thinking about his dad and kamoshida. his heart is almost pounding out of his chest, only by memory.
but with ren here, being by his side, and most importantly, understanding with no need for ryuji to even say a word. his head falls against ren's shoulder, trying to hide how boiled he can get from thinking about the two people who did everything they could to ruin ryuji's life. ren has always been a calming presence for him, and now is no different.) Thank you.
(even better is ren deciding to take charge, should the topics ever become a problem. they both know ryuji would never be able to handle either of those discussions rationally, too emotionally involved in both of them to ever really remain calm.
the urge to just curl up next to ren in silence, and just stay that way for the rest of the day is strong. he feels like home. he's always made ryuji feel at home. welcome.) Yeah. We're good.
(he takes a deep breath, to steady himself, stop himself from getting too amped up over something that hasn't even happened yet. no need to get anxious or short tempered about how ren's parents will react when they haven't even met.
he stays where he is, resting against ren and making no move to get up. not that he would ever want to.) If I had to do something like this with anyone... I'm glad it's you. You're not making me change anything about who I am. I feel like if it was anyone else, even the others, they'd... I dunno, want answers or reasons. But not you. I guess it's just... it feels like you look at me and think I'm fine the way I am. That hasn't changed from Shujin, I still feel so free when I'm with you. Even like this.
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he lets out a sigh of relief, unaware of just how emotional he can get just from thinking about his dad and kamoshida. his heart is almost pounding out of his chest, only by memory.
but with ren here, being by his side, and most importantly, understanding with no need for ryuji to even say a word. his head falls against ren's shoulder, trying to hide how boiled he can get from thinking about the two people who did everything they could to ruin ryuji's life. ren has always been a calming presence for him, and now is no different.) Thank you.
(even better is ren deciding to take charge, should the topics ever become a problem. they both know ryuji would never be able to handle either of those discussions rationally, too emotionally involved in both of them to ever really remain calm.
the urge to just curl up next to ren in silence, and just stay that way for the rest of the day is strong. he feels like home. he's always made ryuji feel at home. welcome.) Yeah. We're good.
(he takes a deep breath, to steady himself, stop himself from getting too amped up over something that hasn't even happened yet. no need to get anxious or short tempered about how ren's parents will react when they haven't even met.
he stays where he is, resting against ren and making no move to get up. not that he would ever want to.) If I had to do something like this with anyone... I'm glad it's you. You're not making me change anything about who I am. I feel like if it was anyone else, even the others, they'd... I dunno, want answers or reasons. But not you. I guess it's just... it feels like you look at me and think I'm fine the way I am. That hasn't changed from Shujin, I still feel so free when I'm with you. Even like this.